anxiety- jj maybank
jj maybank x fem!reader
warnings: anxiety attack. fluff at the end
summary: jj helps you during an anxiety attack
playlist: the archer by taylor swift
a/n: thank u so much for the sweet words, I hope you liked it. Iβm sorry I couldnβt include the future part, I didnβt know how to write it right now.
I knew coming to the party wasnβt a good idea, these past few days everything seemed so loud but kie was excited and k didnβt wanted to ruin the mood.
jj was paying extra attention tonight, as if he knew how was I feeling before he left the house. βbaby you sure you wanna go? we can stay and make some pizza.β He asks taking my face in his hands.
βyeah, yeah. Iβm sure honey, letβs go before john b starts honking.β I can see he isnβt convinced at all, so I kiss his lips before leaving his side and getting inside the twinkie.
sarahβs voice, the one usually brings me peace at any situation is making my head run faster with every second that goes by. I start dissociating and they donβt realize I stopped paying attention, no one except from my boyfriend knows how bad the anxiety can get inside my head.
I dismiss the offers of alcohol and weed once we are inside the party, it would only make everything worse. breathing starts getting harder inside my chest and I feel as if someone was pressing their foot on top of it.
βjβ I tug on his shirt to get his attention, which he immediately gives me. with one look at me he knows exactly whatβs going on, he takes the ice out of the drink he had in his hand before rubbing in around my neck and giving the red cup to john b.
βweβll be right back.β He tells the pogues who look a bit confused but I just want to leave this place.
jj guides me till we find the bathroom upstairs.
βbaby what are you feeling?β
βI donβt know itβs just too much, all too loud.β I look up at him and I can feel the tears starting to fall but my body is trembling too much for me to clean them.
βdo you want me go hug you or more water in your neck?β I nod no and press my face to his chest and he hugs me and caresses my hair.
βwe can leave, take a nice walks. the night is beautiful and itβll be good for you to relax.β his lips press a kiss to my forehead.
βyes please letβs go, I need to go j.β I donβt know in which state jj sees me but I know its not good as we leave the place really fast, he called pope to let βem know we left. our walk to the cheatau doesnβt take more than 20 minutes.
jj helps me do my night routine, my hands still shaking and tucks us in bed.
βthank you j.β I murmur into his neck.
βnothing to thank sweet girl. you ask for help when you need it baby. Iβm right here for you.β
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hey everyone! I hope you liked this one, I have anxiety episodes myself and I hope no one felt offended at what I wrote. reblogs and feedback are always appreciated!
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